I feel kinda empty in all honesty. I love being back home but it can be depressing at times. Majority of my friends are all at school, and you’re gone, and i’m staying in this house that still smells like you. It sucks. I just feel lonely. All I do is sit and watches movies or bum out on my computer for long hours. It’s depressing. I just wish I could be healthy again, happy again and back in Toronto. Toronto seems to feel more like home than this place is to me lately. I feel better off down there. 

Maybe I should reconsider therapy.

In so much shock and this doesn’t even feel real at all. 

I kind of hope when I go back home I seeyou. Not like hang out with you or talk to you but just run into you or see you somewhere I guess. I sound creepy as hell but I just wanna know that everythings good with you and your happy. I feel as if so much damage has been done to me and you its just stupid to try to see each other. You said you’d leave me alone and that shits in the past but part of me kind of hates the thought of that. I wish it was easy to still be friends with you and not have to get rid of each other in our lives.